as a kid i was diagnosed with add, or adhd. i cannot remember. but what i do know is that im a neurodivergent child. i feel frustrated because neurodivergent does not mean "immobile idiot". but according to all my teachers. it does. i have to have my hand held like im some sort of fuckin idiot, to the point where if i do anything that shows some sort of anger, ill get asked to take a "break". and 9 times out of 10. i have to. i dont want to take a FUCKING break. im not an IDIOT. by break, i have to walk around the school. mind you im not retarded, i dont have down sydnrome, and i dont have whatever other shitty disability. i have adhd. thats it. it doesnt help the fact that the kids bully me at school, call me autistic, and take advantage of the fact i cant do SHIT towards them because they'll just laugh. thats all they do. laugh. just laugh at me. and im SICK of it. i am SICK of it. one of the most notirious people that have been doing this towards me is a kid at my school named jacob. i dont want to say his last name because that is not okay, but his name is jacob. today when i was just trying to walk home, this kid is in front of me and i lose it. because hes looking back at me and laughing. i should mention hes been doing this for 3 years straight. not to mention, hes racist. blantaly fucking racist. anyways, hes laughing at me, and i FLIP MY SHIT at him because im sick of. im done. i want this to end. and this BITCH ASS PIECE OF SHIT!!!! DECIDES TO THREATEN ME, AND SAYS HE'LL CALL THE POLICE FOR "HARASSMENT" jesus CHRIST i hate this fucking world and everyone in it. it feels like nobody here cares about me, i have NO friends. i have NO lovelife. im constanly BULLIED FOR NO REASON. it hurts me. it hurts me deeply. but. theres nothing i can do. i can scream as much as i want. i can tell the principal as much as i want. i can beg to not go to school as much as i want. but nothing helps. these 2 fucking adults run out of their car and try to "fix" the situation by telling us to split up and walk on the other sides of the sidewalk. im bawling my eyes out. jacob is on the phone with a fucking whore that he calls his mom. talking about how he wants me to have a conversation with the prinicipal tomorrow. which is why im not going. im not going to school tomorrow. its not worth it. im moving. who fucking cares at this point. i dont. my life is misery. and i want the misery to end. im the coolest guy i know, and i dont know why im bullied for being me. it makes me very. very upset. just gotta make it to friday. anyways. if you care. here is my guestbook

i didnt go to school today for obvious reasons. my mom didnt really care because i asked her to stay home. the maintenance people at my aparments came in to check on our apartment. thats about it. i got food from daves hot chicken and some doordash money. but. yeah.

well. today was.. slow. i would say. nothing really happened. i had to stay in my 7th period class most of the day because i dont want to deal with these people i do not like. pretty slow day, like usual. i went to art club today, but.. its been quiet. yeah. a few kids who are popular cock sucking dick riding idiots decided to keep trying to get on my nerves. but i didnt pay attention to them. i have to talk to the admin tomorrow. fuck this school.

im not dead. im alive. nothing has happened, but i had to sign a fucking no contact contract or whatever gay bullshit they wanna call it. no lunch detention for jacob, no suspension, nothing. just a "pls no talk him..!! pls!!". same kid who used to follow me home every day for no reason. ill say it again. FUCK THIS SCHOOL!